
Malar Villi
Loving is NOT painful
Updated: Apr 23, 2022

Loving is not painful
Not being able to express is
Longing to interact is not painful
Not being able to do that is
To love is fulfilling
But not be experience the love back
Can leave one broken
Learning how to let go is painful
Not knowing where you left to
Only void
Consolation comes that you are in a better plane
The depth of faith and fate all crushed
In this other plane , you can see us ,maybe
But we can’t experience you
Not your chats nor laughters
Not your authentic , transparent , honest thoughts
No more unique validation of ideals that we shared
No more messages that you personally care
Neither the joy and pride that you treasure
Nor the conversation of your ideals for life
It feels like not os long ago that we met
Yet the many footprints that you have left
Inspired me how to live , love , laugh
I have received so much
Admiring how you made dreams come true
And aching for the one that were beyond you
Generosity had a new face with you
Giving when you had nothing is just you
To say thank you the you gasp for your own breath
To give away all that you have
Unconditional in essence
I don’t know how I feel
Knowing it will never be the same
I do know that we will laugh and cry
Thinking of what you would say
At different moments , different times
They say life is short
Yours was unfairly too short
It’s been my privilege to have met you
Been blessed by your loving nature
You will be missed forever my friend
Your presence never to be replaced
Yet cherished
A short life but a big one
How to live and love wholeheartedly
I have no words
To comfort your favourite girl
Who lives the legacy your left
In every way possible
This is not saying goodbye
Just saying it’s really quiet without you
Life will go on
Will try to love life like you
This piece was inspired by a friend , Ravintharan Doracanoo who inspired me by the way he loved and lived. His quick exit into the other world left a vacuum as I browsed through the various messages he left for me and made me feel visible to myself and his life .